Parliament Witness

My First Experience:

I entered my dream-state, instantaneously I knew I was dreaming.  So I gained consciousness of my dream-state.  Nevertheless I started to think what experiment I want to do with my dream… I thought about it being my birthday, I saw a cake on a yellowish light in the darkness I blew the candles and woke up.

This might seem like a successful lucid dream, nevertheless I later remembered, I had seen that cake before. It just so happens the night before I had seen “The Descent” Which features a birthday cake scene equal to the one in my dream.  That day I learned the immense power of the subconscious over myself.  It’s as if my ego was keeping me out.  It’s as if it was trying to fool me into thinking I was in control of my dream.

My Second Experience:

I entered my dream-state, instantaneously I knew I was dreaming.  So I gained consciousness of my dream-state.  Before I could think of something to do Everything turned pitch black.  White words appear before me like a silent movie.  They say ” You’re not supposed to be here, get out!”  The words repeated themselves in my mind but made absolutely no sound.  I was scared beyond my limits, this has been one of my scariest dreams, not because of the events that ocurred.  But because of no particular reason during the dream I felt a very visceral unsubstantiated fear.  It was fear for the sake of fear.  There fear was magnificently rich and painful, redundant in it’s meaning.  I was intensely afraid and for no reason.

This dream also featured a very high vibration that resounded in my ears.  This vibration seems to be a recurring theme in my worst nightmares, My rabid dog nightmare also featured a very high pitched devastating vibration.  It makes me feel paranoid, in danger, observed and threatened by an external being.

I was going on a trip with several people to a haunted house. I was trying to convince everyone to walk around the haunted house by night, but none of them wanted to. I told them there was no point in going to a haunted house If we don’t walk in it by night.

Then I see a seven year old girl with a birthday tiara and a cake of a roller coaster in front of her. She was very snobby and over the top. Then she began to tell us a story.

She said she was a child prodigy and that she once made a wonderful roller coaster. This roller coaster was very famous until one day there was an accident. It seems the roller coaster had resonated with something and had untied itself and fallen appart.

Then the girl said: 

“You know that moment in a roller coaster, when you feel like you are going to die and this simultaneously makes you feel more alive? Well these people got to feel that before they died. They died feeling alive.”

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Me and my girlfriend were studying for physics. When we were working with the formula for weight (w=mg) we canceled g and as we did i heard the sound of waves and the feeling of levity.

I had a dream where I was in my old highschool and we were being all sent to the nurses office, there we were all being inspected for a parasite. This parasite carried a disease called love disease. I was curious toward the fact that only women tested possitive for the love disease. Then it came to me, love disease didnt exist, the nurse treated it like an epidemic but the truth was that disease was just a ploy to segregate the female gender (much similar to the way “cooties” worked). I wanted to tell people but they were so scared they were in a trance.

Then i thought to myself, once you control our sexuality, you control our very being.

I fell asleep early the day before, I was fatigued. 

When i awoke the next day, and yes I was awake, I had a terrifying feeling.

I was hearing a very high vibration in my head. I tried to merely observe the phenomenon as it happened, but it filled me with a lot of discomfort. I kept falling asleep and having this conversation with a lady and waking up to the high vibration.

I remember in one conversation the lady told me there was a hairless dog with rabies by my bedside, and that this dog wanted to do me harm. I kept hearing the vibrations as i woke up but after the 3rd cycle I began to have a strong picture of a tan hairless dog on top of me. Staring at me and bearing his teeth….

I have a child, my life is happy 

I occurs to me I should pay him a visit in his room 

I go in and i see pictures on the wall, mostly scribbles 

Some pictures of dogs and houses.

I talk to the child and ask him: 

“What are you doing?” 

He says: 

“Im drawing, I put the cat in the bucket” 

As I ask myself, what cat he speaks of 

I glance to his left

Therein lies a dead cat in a bucket 

A body full of flies, slowly rotting away 

My child looks at me with a smile 

As if he is proud of what he did.

I occurs to me that the child pierced a cat 

In the jugular with giant fisher’s hook 

And left the cat to hang as it bled out.

I wake up… 

Name: Gian

Gender: Male

Height: 5’4

Weight: 173.4

BMI: 29.8

I’m almost obese? Doubt it…
(I have grown a lot of muscle this semester :S) 

Day 1: Starting weight/measurements:
Day 2: What is your height? How do you feel about your height?
Day 3: A picture of one of your rewards (dress, shoes, etc.). Why is this a reward? At what point will you “earn” this reward?
Day 4: Your greatest fear regarding your weight loss
Day 5: Why do you really want to lose this weight? Who are you doing this for?
Day 6: Do you have any disordered eating habits? How do you overcome/cope with them?
Day 7: Who knows about your weight loss journey? What do they think about it?
Day 8: Your workout routine
Day 9: What are your co-workers’/friends’/family’s reactions to your weightloss? Positive or negative?
Day 10: Do you feel like you have given anything up over the course of this process? If yes, what is it, and how do you feel about making the sacrifice?
Day 11: Promote your favourite Fitblr! Why do you like their blog?
Day 12: Tell us what you ate today. Is this a typical meal plan for you? If not, what do you usually eat?
Day 13: What are you doing to lose weight? Are you in a program or doing it on your own?
Day 14: What is your ultimate weightloss/fitness goal? Describe what made you choose this as your ultimate goal.
Day 15: Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, how has it affected your life, weightloss-related or otherwise? If not, would you ever consider it? Why or why not?
Day 16: What made you decide to get healthy?
Day 17: Do you have an eating disorder? Have you ever been directly affected by an eating disorder, either yours or someone close to you? If so, tell us your story.
Day 18: What do you allow yourself to indulge in? Candy, cake, alcohol, etc.? Why did you choose this as your indulgence?
Day 19: Do you still eat fast food? If yes, what do you eat? If not, why don’t you eat fast food?
Day 20: If you have been on a weightloss program, what is your favourite? If not, which one would you be on if you could?
Day 21: What is your favourite outfit? Why is it your favourite? Post a picture of you in it!
Day 22: At what weight did you feel the happiest? Why?
Day 23: How does the media influence your drive to lose weight?
Day 24: How do you feel about the “pro-ana” and “thinspo” community of weight loss on Tumblr?
Day 25: What is a type of workout that you never expected to enjoy but now love?
Day 26: What keeps you motivated? Where do you find positive influences?
Day 27: Are other people in your life trying to get healthy/living healthy? How do you handle being around others who do not ascribe to/support your lifestyle?
Day 28: What part of your body are the most proud of? Show it off with a picture!
Day 29: What is your definition of beauty?
Day 30: New weight/measurements! How do you feel? Are you going to continue to get healthier? What are you plans for next month?

Something to spend my vacations in?

Do I have the discipline?

Let’s Find out :P

Dream #1

I’m sitting with my girlfriend as we watch cars repeatedly crashing on a random house.  Our first reaction is amazement (as if we were watching a beautiful movie), gradually our feelings shift from amazement, to hilarity, to sadness and finally to terror as the stark reality of what is happening (or rather the destructive force that we are experiencing) becomes clearer and clearer.  Our terror reaches its climax when an 18 wheeler crashes into the house completely demolishing it into a pit of flames.  Then we realize that it was nighttime and that there were people sleeping inside the house and so we feared the family may have been killed.  Some time passes and we see a family running with their heads covered.  I noticed that they were my neighbors.  For some reason I (or rather my subconscious) over emphasized the fact that they were Jews (my neighbors are jewish in real life) in a sympathetic way.  It was as if the event was a great deal more disastrous given the fact that they were jews. 

This dream is very hard for me to interpret because It is filled with so many images.  perhaps what i can get most of it is how I fear the destructiveness of human routine.  

The men crashing the cars were not doing so on purpose, they were all drunk.  This is because I think my subconscious withdrew this image I acquired some years ago when a drunk teenager crashed his car against my house, (we were left without water for 3 days because he had crashed on a water drainage pipe).

I believe the Jew part of the dream has no relevance, there is no degree of anti-semitism in the dream.  I guess thats just the way I recognize my neighbors, they are the only jews that i know.

Dream #2

I wanted to take my girlfriend on a date to somewhere special, so I brought her out to see the moon somewhere special (on the night before the full moon (yesterday) hmmm… :S ).  This was a place that I used to go to back in my high-school days, a wall where kids used to practice tennis on their own but I used as a hangout spot.  We had a nice night but suddenly I felt paranoid and I began to feel the presence of a mysterious observer.  I violently (in my girlfriend’s defense) approached this person, but he wasn’t watching me, turns out he just (literally) had eyes on the back of his head.  He was a teenager and he was weirded out by the way I approached him, so much in fact, that he got out of his car, opened the door for his girlfriend and walked away into the darkness to avoid my presence.  This did not shift my paranoid mood, I knew I was being watched.  Then I saw a man with glistening eyes behind a bush, his eyes showed that he was a man broken inside and that made him very dangerous and threatening.  I told my girlfriendI had to cancel our date and she was mad about it  We went to the attic of a lodge (apparently we lived there) and we had an argument about how the night went.  She stated that she saw the man with glistening eyes but that she thought nothing of it and that I should overreact to these things.  But I knew he was a murderer and a rapist so I stood my ground.

I guess this dream has a high regard for paranoia.  I guess it has to do with the fact that lately I cant walk in a parking lot at night without pacing myself in fear of being mugged or killed.  I guess it’s my subconscious expressing my newly regained inner fear of the night, especially in open spaces…